Acceptance

What I've been through was really a shocker for me. But it's alryte, I've seen the other end of this dilemma. It's not me to chose what's best for them. I'll let them decide themselves. Cause their the only one I got. I know they can change. I got this strong feeling in my gut that they would. I'll just have to wait. Realizing this, their still the same person i knew years back. I'm not giving up on them. :)

Btw, I wrote a new song today. It's a so so for me. Still trying to make it slower but it still ended up being in a upper beat. It's about trying so badly to change the people you love. but lastly realising that it's not your responsibility to make the change. It's them to decide. It's just a matter of time. So yea, that's the whole sum of the song.

I have another song I'm trying to finish tomorrow. It's more of a continuation of my cousins unfinished song. It's in my ipod though. it's called 'track 05' for now. cause I can't quite figure out the perfect title for the song yet. i might just call it pancakes. Okaay maybe not. Still in the figuring out section. I'll think of something.

Oh guess what, I'm starting my p90x workout tomorrow. Time to pump back those all muscle of mine. It's gonna be like pumping a flat tyre. So see me in the next two weeks. Cause a slightly bigger version of me will arrive. if you know what i mean :P

The Break Down

I'm so disappointed knowing most of my friends shisha. Hmmm, must be a new way to be in the in crowd. So tell me this, what do you get when you do it? Does it gives you happiness? Does it give you love? Does it give you satisfaction? Does it gives you hope? I'll never know.

But one thing I do know that is that I'll always look down on people who shisha or smoke. It shows how weak they are. Shows how they value their lives. The ones I look up too are those who has done it before but has quite knowing that it just kills. They are what I call survivors. But I'm so foolish in believing I can change everyone for the better. The thing is everyone is too big of a number. I've seen the corruption that this lead too.

Did you know that taking one puff of shisha is equivalent to taking 3 packets of cigarettes. Plus, the risk of lung cancer and brain damage is higher compared to cigarettes. And yet they still do it. They remain unchanged.

Maybe it's a new of smoking. Who knows. Why won't they think what would happen in the long term? Why would they want to bet their lives on this? Just picture yourself sucking in all the smoke in the exhaust pipe in a car. That is what shisha is to me. But the thing is, no matter how hard I try, I'll never get through to them. Only they can change for the better. No one else can decide.

If you think that all the effect of shisha won't happen to you, fine.

If you want to risk your lives, fine.

If you think that doing this makes you feel better, fine.

If you think by doing this makes you fit in, fine.

If you don't care about anything I've just said to make you change, fine.

Cause I've done my part. Now it's all up to you.

Fun Fact About Myself

Whenever I feel sad, it will always rain. When the rain falls, I keep thinking that I'm the one who made it rain.

Stay

I hope you'll be there with me, in years to come :)

I'm holding on to that,

New Idea

Today, I just got back from riding my bro's wave board. It's pretty awesome if you ask me. Gotta get me one of those one day. Maybe next week. After my exams. Haha. Anyways, I finally made a new song 10 minutes ago. It's not complete yet, but i can assure you it's the one to be uploaded. You know what, I still can't get my mind off this wave board. I just gotta get my hands on one. It's driving me crazy. But i'll most probably end up with a broken arm, or a broken leg once I own one. So just get your marker pens ready, just in case I have to wear a cast one day.

Till next time!

Equilibrium

Things, as always will reach equilibrium one day. See for the past few months(knowing that it's been awhile since I've updated) it's been quite rough for me. Unstable, just like swimming in a strong current. Not sure what will happen next. Always on my feet to make sure I make the right moves.

But now I realize, no matter how bad something could happen. Something good will always come after. It might not be today,tomorrow, but just wait. That taste of relief brings itself to you. Being yourself, and not trying to be someone else would be one of the things I adore. Thats why well I have someone incredible in mind right now. I'll give you a hint who it is. The hint is JOG. Haha.

Hmmm, I love my life right now. Like i said,everything is in equilibrium right now. No down side, not so much up side either. It's just nice the way it is. I managed to find my cousins facebook today. I gotta tell you, it took me 3 month to find it. Luckly, I did. I'm starting to miss that funny cousin of mine. He's releasing his new album on the 7th of december. So to you guys, who love's his songs like I do. Just be sure to get a heads up when that day arrives. What can I say, I have to admit he's the coolest cousin a person could have. I myself couldn't believe he's gone this far in his journey in music. From someone who started with a crappy guitar to someone who could produce songs with meaning. Truly amazing.

I guess that's all I gotta say for now. Just one more thing before I end this post, it's to this special someone mine. Thank you for always being there for me, even through the thick and thin. I hope we can make it for a long shot.

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