Stay or Leave?

Choosing hasn't been so difficult. Both sides have their pros and cons. I just have to pick the one that's best for me. They said just choose one and get over with it. Easy said and done with. But if you put yourself in my shoes it isn't actually. You can say it's a matter of life and death situation. The only problem is you don't know which side brings life and which side brings death. How I wish, this would be as simple as choosing a restaurant to have dinner.

Somehow I knew this day would come. I just didn't expect it to come so soon. I need more time to think this through. Give me a week or two. Then that'll ease on making my decision. Atleast I'll still have time to say goodbye to those closest to me. I'm gonna miss their smiles every morning, the laughs we share, the looks on their faces every time when I lose in every little fight we have. Those memories can never be buried. It's just there waiting to be rediscovered again.

Even if I go, I have a feeling everything will be alright. Things will still stay the same. I mean how can one guy make a difference rytee.It won't give a huge impact on anyone. They have their own life to worry about.

Now I feel like an empty vessel,being drifted away. Waiting to be pulled by the current that awaits in front. I don't feel like doing anything anymore.

Let's just wait and see..

Relieve

The pass few days, hasn't been going so great. I knew something I shouldn't have, then all sorts of things started going through my mind. I can't even think straight anymore. All the possibilities. It feels like someone's stabbing you countless times. I had to put on this fake smile just to be sure that no one sees what's up. That was a tough week for me to go through. But once I heard the truth, finally I can breath much easier . It doesn't matter what other people might say. Those are just words trying to move you further away from the truth. Push that aside, and I know we'll be okay.

lazybum :)

Sit and Wait

Day in and day out. Been stuck in the school hall. What a great way to start school huh. I think if you give me a few more hours in there, my legs will literally fall off. These legs were meant to move not just sit there for hours and hours listening to teacher clarify the classes available. The funny thing is during the holidays an hour seems to pass just like that. When school starts just an hour seems like days. It's times like this where you wish there would be an extra week of freedom left before school starts.

Lucky, tomorrow is the last day in the hall before we officially move on to form four. Let's just hope I get the class I applied for. It's all up to them to decide. All we can do now is to wait and see.

Oh and April here I come :D

Here it Begins

First day of school, same faces, same routines. Here is where it's all going to begin. The fresh start I needed to change the old me. It was nice to see those smiles again. That spark somewhere inside grew tremendously. To bad my partner in crime wasn't there anymore. Looks like I'm on my own this time. It'll be a tough i know, but once you've know the tricks behind it all, it's gonna be smooth sailing from there. Now I wonder how the month of January is going to end, either devastating or it might just be a new opportunity to get up from where i left off. Who knows, things will only get clearer as the days goes by.

New year resolutions? God I got loads of em'. Where should I start, alright maybe we'll go with the goals that needed to be accomplish by the end of april and the ones needed to be done through out the year.

Here we go:

1) Get excellent grades for my form 4 year

2) Keep every promise I make

3) Win in the school marathon

4) Post atleast 5 of my own songs on the web

5)Change only for the better

6) Willing to take any risk that needed to be taken

7) Figure out where is my life taking me

8) Fly to Geelong

9) Learn any time of martial arts

10) Be there for someone whenever I can

Why am I listing all this down you may ask. Well it's to make sure that I'm on the right track in reaching my goals. Alot of things are going to happen this year I know that for sure. That's why I'm constantly reminding myself not to go astray. Cause you'll never know what life have instored for you.

Now I know

have you ever felt like things aren't adding up? Not going the way you planned it would be?

Sometimes we have to face the fact that when you've done something terribly wrong, that river that you've once passed before isn't smooth anymore. The current is faster, stronger and you never know where you might end up. That stream of happiness needs to be rediscovered again. But doing that is quite hard from my point of view. Finding the right moment, the right words, the right time, the right moves. Everything needs to be looked over hundreds and hundreds of time before taking that chance. Why? Well maybe it's cause i'm still new at this. So it needs time getting used to. I gotta say I'm not the best, but i'll get there one way or another. Worst? Hmm.. like i said i'll get there. Promise.